A story behind those eyes!!!!

Today was amazing!!!! I am in the feeding rotation again and the day goes so quickly because we are so busy!!! Tomorrow we are going to start some children on cereal in their milk and see how they do with that! I spent 45 minutes today with Dennis and I read his file today and got his story, I went to the bathroom after I read it and I cried!!!! So here it is:

Dennis was born on October 19th, 2009!!!!! How cool is that we are just two days apart in birthdays!!! October birthdays are the best!!! Go figure cause Dennis is awesome!!!! Well his mother died during his birth due to complications and his father could not keep him and so his father brought him to the orphanage. His father comes sometimes to visit him and eventually he will come back and hopefully get him. Dennis was a very sick baby and was taken to the hospital a bunch when he was first at the Haven. He doesn’t have HIV but was put on HIV medicine because they diagnosed him as failure to thrive!!! Looking at this child now I would have never guessed that he had been so sick, and his smile is so contagious! I cried for him today because I love my mother and realized that he would never know his own mother! I am thankful for the time that I had with my father, I’m thankful I got to know him!!!! I miss my father but it is so awesome that I was given the chance to know him!!! God is good all the time!!!! Mom I don’t know what my life would be without you and just know that I am so thankful I have you in my life and love you very much!  You are one of my bestest friends and no one can ever replace you! I honestly wished today that I could have taken Dennis home!!!  I just hope that the time I spend with him he loves and benefits from!!!! I hugged on him today a little more than usual and as I left him in his crib today he smiled, blew me a kiss, and said “BYE”!!! Oh it pierced my soul!!!! Dennis has taught me a lot about myself today!!! He taught me that I can not wait to be a mother one day and that I could be a mother to someone who I didn’t give birth to!

I pray for Dennis tonight that one day he will have a mother like the amazing mother I have and that he will be thankful for her!!!!! I pray that he lives a long wonderful and happy life!!!!! Oh Dennis!!! You made my day!!!! Because our birthdays are so close I am going to send him a birthday card every year for his birthday!!!! Dennis will always be my buddy!!!! I wish I could take this child home, I know I can’t but I would seriously love to just pack him up and take him with me!!! Love you Dennis and to all!!!!